So I am lying in a bed at camp, yet again, faced with a difficult situation. Unfortunately, but fortunately, this challenge isn’t so much spiritual and emotional, but something more physical. The cool thing though is A) I’m not freaking out yet. B) I’m actually quite joyful and C) I don’t have to go to work tomorrow, and I get to stay in my cabin and read my Bible and CS Lewis all day. That seems like a pretty sweet deal to me.
The theme this past week has been Joy—and for the staff at camp especially, to find joy in our struggling and dreadful times. The Lord really challenged me tonight at Praise & Prayer, He asked “Janine, are you willing to praise Me always? Can you find Joy in Me and Me alone?” I agreed. I said “Yes, Sir! I am willing! I will Praise You! I’m not worthy, but Lord, I will praise you with what I have!”
So now, I will praise Him. I won’t be discouraged or dismayed. I won’t lose heart. I’m ready to Praise You God. I’m looking forward to leaning on your strength and comfort when I feel alone, isolated and like a wild animal with a disease. I’m looking forward to thanking you for all the scared looks I may get. I’m looking forward to spending time with people just like me. But ultimately, I’m super excited to spend an all-day date with You, oh Lord.
It’s been a while. I apologize, but not really—I don’t think anyone really reads these anyway. Oh well.
So here I am again, curled up under the covers in my bed at camp, listening to the song that got me through last summer; Take Heart by Hillsong. Once again I find myself struggling against lies and doubts that are resurfacing from last summer—at least I’ve identified these lies and such, right? I guess.
But what’s frustrating is being caught in this cycle of apostasy…and the hardest part is not having that one person who knows everything and has been with you in these struggles since the beginning. This empty, human void in my heart though, is longing to be filled by the One who knows my whole heart and can only truly satisfy my lonely, confused, frustrated spirit.
I wish I could just get over it, and skip the heart wrenching pain of silliness. God will do it, and He will use it. I just need to trust and obey.
my life goal is to reblog this every monday
I’m tempted to set this up in my queue every Monday for a year.
See this every Monday, Reblog this every time. (:
Almost forgot today’s a MONDAY!!
this video kills me every time though
Ahhhh so excited!!!
I CAN’T WAIT!!! 8’D
“When you date, date with Christ in mind. Date more purely than I did. Date with a standard of purity established. Date stubbornly devoted to abstinence and the joy set before you after the reception, and the years to follow. Marry with the joy of a clear conscience. Go to bed without shame and…
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